The anniversary of my mom’s death was Saturday, June 9th and somehow the sadness of that didn’t hit me until this morning. I woke up feeling very sad.
I opened the book “The Tools” where I’d left off and it talks about sadness…which is like having a black cloud over our head, which then blocks out all the sun. That’s how I was feeling. The antidote, they say, to the black cloud is gratitude and also connecting to a source, a higher power, or whatever that means to each of us.
It helped me to read that, but I still felt blue, so I took myself to Friends In Deed at noon. It turned out that the topic of the Big Group at noon is grief. So I had a good cry and now I have to deal with Lucy, who’s got so many health issues it’s hard to know where to begin.
Ah, life. I am so grateful! I am grateful for summer coming! I am grateful that I had a good night’s sleep! I am grateful for humor! I am grateful for health! I am grateful for dancing!
I can feel the black cloud opening up. I really can. Not fast enough, but it’s opening.