This morning I woke up with a headache and with fear. I read that The S & P lowered the U.S.’s rating and I immediately went deeper into fear.
Fear has a way of expanding in record time. One minute you feel a little sad, a little headache-y and the next minute, you’re thinking, “Life completely sucks, I just want to go to bed and never get up.”
So I did my mediation this morning and eventually I heard Pema Chodron’s voice say, “Sit with the fear. Welcome it. Don’t fight it.”
And gradually the fear lifted a bit. Not a lot, I’m still contemplating getting back into bed after I walk Lucy. But then I thought about the ending of my play and I started writing and suddenly I was occupied and not thinking so much about the fear.
So the pain this morning led me to that. I can’t erase fear, or escape it, I just have to sit with it and let it lead me to where I am supposed to be led.
I just did my daily readings and found this quote:
“Courage faces fear and thereby masters it.” Martin Luther King