The reality of winter and cold, really cold weather. And two dogs that need to be walked, separately now, because Lola can hardly walk, so I have to carry her out and Lucy, who needs a good, long walk. Six times a day we walk, in the early morning, in the late afternoon, and then at night. So between working and walking and going to the gym and trying to stay warm myself, my life is full. And amazingly, happy. Today would have been our twenty-fifth wedding anniversary. I celebrated by going to lunch with the people I’m working with and we had a fantastic lunch at Balthazar. I love working again, I finally feel like the last year and a half of grief and loss are mostly behind me and though there’s still plenty to be sad about, and worry about, and angry about — it all basically feels pretty much like life.
I’m happy to wake up each morning, do my meditation, have my coffee, sit quietly and then walk the dogs and go to the gym, if I have time. Simple things that feel just perfect. These simple things I am so grateful for.
They always say it’s through the most adversity that we grow – I believe it’s true. I’m so grateful for the past year and a half. I probably wouldn’t appreciate these simple things now, if I hadn’t lost so much and found myself in the process.